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Monday, August 18, 2008 @ 11:23 AM
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wen out for lunch with my uncle's family...we were eating at sumwhere at bukit merah...my 3rd uncle suggested the place....they were all there except for my family...lols...den well i was sitting between arshaf and ridzuan...den while eating arshaf was like mimicing wateva i was saying..damn irritating la...haiz...this ppl argh reallie nothing better to do...i was like askin him to stop but he was like having fun..den suddenly i jus called arshaf tortoise's name..totally shit man....i was like shocked myself...i swear it wasnt in purpose!! sheesh..haiz...maybe coz tat wat he used to do last time..god...ridzuan didnt tok to me aft tat...den at nite he msg me saying " it'll be better if u can get over the past" i reallie dunno wat else is left for me to convince tis ppl tat i reallie dunt hav any feelings for him..its over alrite..and im sick and tired of all this shit... well, nadhiah den ask me wat would i do " IF one day he came back and tell me everything was a mistake" i told her i would be happy to hear those words frm him...but we will never be together...its reallie hard to explain...i cried alot wen i was with him..i hate myself so much...life was purely a misery and i didnt like myself thinking so much...i realized tat he's a totally different person..for me before i do anything i usually listen to my heart before doin...like wen i feel like it i jus do it..wont bother thinking...but for him its totally different..he thinks like hundred and thousand times before doing anything...haiz...its jus hard la..hahs.. it wouldnt be long before he forgets everything...im posting tis also coz i noe he doesnt read my blog anymore...jus hope tis kids(BP,ridz, Nadhiah, etc) understands tat its over...so dunt get overly excited for nothing=) |
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