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Tuesday, June 03, 2008 @ 4:15 PM
hmm...went to BbP yesterdae...was slacking and slacking..
hmm..the weather was fine..nice hot sunny sun.... been quite some time since i was like under the sun... aniwae buddie msg askin if i was still der or was gng hme... well, didnt feel like gng hme so told him leaving at only 5 plus or so... haiz...im reallie sorrie... i tot that since we were like so over each other so its ok to like mit up and stuff... haiz... saw him smoking.... I DESPITE SMOKERS!!! but den i didnt mind or anitink... in fact ask him to hav a seat nxt to me... and the smoke was like blowing directly at my face... i was like chokin to death man... but jus remain cool and tried to turn away... i was trying to breath in any clean air available... ur gal wld not wanna kiss u wen u smoke as it STINKS!!! haiz..i jus wish i cld do sumtink to help u stop it.... i dnt wanna lose a fren like u... but sumhow u thnk u dying is gud for everyone... i dint reallie mind if ppl sae i was like flirt or stuff.. in fact me n bestie was jokin abt me being 1 nite stand n all last nite=D... but wen i heard it frm his mouth.. tears was just dropping... i was shock... y was i so affected by wat he sae?? y was it plainly hard to treat it as a joke?? haiz...i practised it in my head... if anythin was to go out of hand.. 'jus react the same wae u did' was wat i reminded mysel wen i realised he was like reallie close... but a moment of folly.... shit man... how could that happen... haiz... my mind was a clear blank... i jus knew tat he was mine at that moment,once a moment... haiz... how did tis happen?? i tot it was over 'us'... haiz... but why does tis 'feeling thing' still exist?? why cant we dump it like our previous ex's and be buddies?? u told me to tell d person i love that i love him... y did i had d urge to shake u and tell u tat aft all tis time no one has replace ur place in my heart?? since u noe me inside out,can u see tat in me too?? do u also feel d same?? but aint u suppose to be my buddie?? or even my 'bro'?? damn...i hate myself man.... why did such a thing hav to happen?? cldnt slp whole of last nite... if he told his gal, how would she react?? im scare she might jus end their relationship... but if he didnt tell her, he wld be guilty for the rest of the time.... luckily it was raining heavily yesterdae.... so jus sat in the rain... i dunno... jus feel like crying out loud.... my head was heavy n all tis morn... havin bad headache and fever...haiz.... jus hope to end my life pretty soon.... IM REALLIE SORRIE MY DEAR FREN...... |
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